Missing
Means So Much
Distance
never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles
and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss
you, I remind myself how lucky I am no longer in your grasp. Someone in my
relationship whom I called my boyfriend has changed overtime. I discern that it's
going to hurt for a while no matter what to do. Trying hard, I will keep doing
well. I'll turn my back and walk away, away from the pain. Scream it loud, drown
it out by the sound of the rain. Listen up, I've had enough all this waiting. I
don’t need you more right now than I ever did. This moment then drove me to
focus more on my goals, I can also spend my more time to my beloved family, and
I must be able to be a strong woman.
Have
you ever undergone a long distance relationship? I was once in that condition, then
it’s so complicated to be lived. My boyfriend is an over protective. I was in a
relationship with him for 3 years. And during the same I'll never feel secure
for myself. I did not have to be myself. He's suggesting me to always adhere to
his orders. I had to report at any time about whatever I did, wherever I went,
and with whom I was at that time. He's like a security post for me. All day and
all night he must know my condition by picked his calling up. Although I was
busy. When it did not I obey, he would curse me, revile me casually. Honestly,
I had a bellyful of his nagging. He, who initially was so good, suddenly
changed after 5 months of our relationship. He showed arrogant attitude that I
never really expected. Just to pick up my parents calling, I have to ask his
permission. You can tell how restrained I was. I was once turned into a quiet
cheerful. He forbade me to smile, to talk, and to save the phone number of
another man. I was not focused on my studies. We fight almost every day. When I
turn off my mobile phone, he's mad at me. I was afraid to tell anyone about my
problems. My personality extremely be changed. People around me think I'm the
cocky one, on account of being unconcerned with the circumstances around me. I
felt pressured by my boyfriend’s attitude. He's like blocking all my
creativity. Taking into consideration the fact that I ventured to oppose it and
try to ignore about any threat of him. I always try to be patient and focus on
my goals in a course, and try to follow a variety of campus activities that
previously I was so afraid to get involved. I realized that he was only going
to be inhibiting my creativity.
The
happiest moments of our life have been the few which we have passed at home in
the bosom of our family. How about if someone comes in your life and you devote
all your attention to him? You lost a certain moment in your family. I went
through that situation before. But now I get it back in my arms. I could spend
a lot of time for my family. My relationship with my family is better than the
first where I always argued what my parents advices. All occurred because of
the influence of his foolish thoughts. My family still hold me up. They won't
make the sadness disappear, but they'll put me on the right track.
Some
of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go. I
should be able to detach of someone whom I love with a fire red when he just
makes me worse off than before. He is the one who show me what's love then take
it all away. His eyes show me hope, then they tear me. He throws me back down
hardly. Not this time, he won't make myself say “ I love you”, and now's the
time I realize all those days I don't love him. Before I can even try to get
over from it. Sometimes I have to make peace with what happened in my past so
that I am able to let go of that hurt. Instead, so many of us put ourselves in
situations to be hurt over and over by the same person because we know things
should be different. I cling to my dreams of what I wish the past could have
been, and by doing so I set myself up to be hurt again. If this is me, I let my
past go – mine “what should have been” – and embrace mine “what is” and mine
“what can be.” At times it is heartbreaking, but ultimately, it will convey for
me.
Moving
on is the only solution and the best one too. However, those of us who have
tasted the bitter truths of life know that this though the best isn't the
easiest solution of them all. A breakup is just few instances that leave us
miserable with an emptiness that is hard to replace. There are many things that
inspired me to look at life from a fresh perspective and not from a lens that
is fogged by the past. Positive things then I have to allow some form of
wallowing to get it all off my chest, making me focus more on what I came for,
and got me closer to my family. Appreciate the goodness of life in other forms
and turn to gratitude for the things that I do have.
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